Family,
I woke up one particular morning and heard irritation in the Lord’s voice. He brought to my remembrance Proverbs 29:23 “A man’s pride will bring him low, But the humble in spirit will retain honor.”
Let me clarify the word irritation when it comes to God. It’s like when sin had risen up to heaven and the Lord sent the fire to Sodom and Gomorrah. In another instance like the irritation Jesus portrayed with His disciples in the Gospels particularly Matthew 17:17 when he said “how long must I be with this generation.” Understanding my own inadequacies and failures, caused me to pray. I pleaded, “Lord, I’m sorry, help my unbelief.” Suddenly, the question below came out of my heart.
How do I keep from feeling so small when I’m close to you like this?”
He responded: “You are small, but you must learn to abide in My presence without looking at yourself. You will not be able to hear from Me or speak for Me if you are looking at yourself. You will always be inadequate. You will always be unworthy for what I call you to do, but it will never be your adequacy or worthiness that causes Me to use you. You must not look at your inadequacy, but look to My adequacy. You must stop looking at your own unworthiness and look to My righteousness. When you are used, it is because of who I AM, not who you are. You did feel My anger as you began to look at yourself. This is the anger I felt toward Moses when he started to complain about how inadequate he was in speech. This only reveals that you are looking to yourself more than to Me. This is the main reason why I am able to use so few of My people for what I desire to do. This false humility is actually a form of pride that caused the fall of man. Adam and Eve began to feel inadequate and that they needed to be more than I made them to be. They took it upon themselves to determine who they should be. You can never make yourself into who you should be, but you must trust Me to mold you into who you should be.”
Although I had never related false humility to the fall of man in the Garden, I knew that this was a major stumbling block preventing many from becoming useful to the Lord. Now in His presence, my own false humility was revealed and looked even worse than I had ever seen. This form of pride was repulsive, and I could understand why it caused the anger of the Lord to burn. Family, this kind of revelation does not come to those who choose to operate in pride or a false way of humility.
Be encouraged.
Love your sister in Christ, Latoya
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